I get a little bit funny round New year (always have), it's a strange old time where I feel very very thankful for what I have but also sad and reflective and a little ranty...
I am not perfect, far from it. So if you think I am...sorry. I am far more proud of the fact that I am completely flawed, imperfect and a little bit nutty. All the paths I have traveled I learned from and grew as a woman, faced my demons, got stronger in some ways that were needed and softer, mellow in others.
I try to be a happy hippy zen chick and I try so hard to keep this calm balance in my life, but I am a passionate ranter and a Scouse (Person from Liverpool, England) comprehensive school bird, this surfaces often, not as much as it once did. I can still go from Zen to Scouse in seconds if you upset my kids.
What I am though is straight and honest, always have been. I can't do bullshit fakery. If I like you then you are loved but if I don't like you then I can't act like I do purely to spy and bitch about your life. I really do not care.
However, certain people over the years I have tried to be grown up and tolerate, I have tried so hard at that but all it does is plaster over the cracks of an unsteady foundation.
You can not grow or build on a mutual dissatisfaction with another human. Best to just burn the bride and be happy either side of the bridge. Throw a match, walk away, they are then dead to me. Good or bad quality, I am unsure really, I admit I am that way, I am a Virgo and we are very black or white.
There are many people who love me genuinely for who I am, but also many hate my guts, good for them, it means I stood up for my true self, became angry, did not conform and if they are offended by that then so be it. We can not all be liked by everyone but so long as we wish them no harm then we are still good humans.
We all need a little bit of anger in our life. No true changes ever happened for improvement of human rights without anger. So that quality I hold on to, I am argumentative and I care about many things that stir an anger within me.
Two things that we do not need as humans are hate and bitterness. Both very destructive qualities that eat away at your soul like a vile incurable disease.
I am holding on to my good tribe and taking them into 2018 with me. The haters and the bitter people stay over there on the other side of the bridge, wish you well and all that but no place in my world for these folk.
No year goes off without a hitch, for me, 2017 was filled with happiness and sadness.
I tried to focus on the happy simple moments and hold on to the belief that darkness always passes as does sadness.
The good experiences of a year always come with contrast so if you take anything from this waffle then.. give up hate and bitterness, detach from negativity and bad juju leave it in 2017 and skip into 2018 holding hands with your happy tribe
(Steps down from soapbox)
Throws some glitter in the air, crystals in situ to attract positivity, sage smoke wafted, Nag fumes fill the air.
Tonight is a great time to write down intentions, release and burn them.
Only take into the new year good vibes.
W, what limiting beliefs you want to be free from, what no longer serves you or what you want to let go of. When you have finished your list, .
Breathe deep into your heart and declare
“I now let this go. And it is so.”
I then take a few deep breaths and rub my hands together: effectively washing myself of attachment to anything I just released, both desired and undesired.
Have a go, what have you got to lose?
Thank you for being part of 2017.
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